“It is not uncommon for people to spend their whole life waiting to start living.” -Eckhart Tolle (hat tip to tinybuddha.com for the quote)
I’m encountering that uncomfortable, messy part of life where you are planning something big and it isn’t falling into place the way you expect or plan. I’m sure the outcome will be exactly what we want, but it is stressful and requires that ever elusive patience.
Somehow it is different this time.
When I met Kevin, I had just stopped waiting to start living. I was awake and alert and excited about it. I loved being single, living in the city, creating a new and mysterious path. And that continued when I met Kevin. I didn’t need a mortgage to make a home. I didn’t need everything to be wrapped in a neat package before I started something new. I’m trying to hold on to this present. Today is a gift.
This weekend we ate beautiful food, looked at art, went to mass, and made stuff. I feel so lucky to live now.